||[Oct. 5th, 2011|08:45 am]
I checked to see roughly when I started eating better/working out/losing weight, and it was around the 11th/12th of October last year. So this should be about week 51 right???
Anyway, I weighed myself today and I'm at my lowest yet. 249.6! When I first started, I was at 356.6. So I've lost 107 pounds in nearly a year. Not bad, i think! If I would've applied myself more in the past 3 months or so, I would have probably lost more. I still weigh way too much. I feel like I've lost my spark in a way. Now, rather than trying to lose weight, I feel like I'm trying to stay where I am. No good! Need to push farther ahead. Harder than before, even. It's just getting more and more difficult for me. I'm caving in to things that I could just turn away from before. I don't know what exactly I need to do, but I need to do it.
The good thing about those 3 months? Rather than losing weight, I WAS still losing sizes. I'm down roughly 12 pants sizes, and 4 shirt sizes. I can't stand wearing my old clothes anymore. It's like wearing burlap sacks and bedsheets.
October has started. The best month! Normally, I get rather inspired this time of year. A lot of drawing or writing. I haven't started doing either yet this year, but ideas have been abundant. I really haven't drawn much at all this year. Just haven't been feeling it.
I really haven't been feeling like doing a lot of things.